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Feel. Run. Jump. Fly. Watch. Laugh. Love. Walk. 
Cry. Wonder. Talk. Enjoy. Dream. Act. Think. Live. Share.
Stay Curious. Take risks.

Make it happen.

Give yourself time. Rest a little more. Easy words but hard to follow. I’m realizing, again, how much I need that. How much I need to do nothing. To stay out of to-do’s and self-pressure. Self-expectations. Notice the signals and react in a natural way. How life is going in its own rhythm. But why … why is it so difficult? Why do we always aim for something bigger, something better? We can be so satisfied with what we have.
Inhale. Exhale. Let go. Easy words. But with the most powerful outcome. Nothing. Just be. 🐆

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. 
- Rainer Maria Silke

 This feeling. This feeling when you just realize life is good how it is right now. This feeling when you get goosebumps, when you Inhalte and you notice that the world is going exactly the way it has to be for you. This feeling when you gave up your control. When everything makes sense. You don’t feel the logic bug you feel like you exactly found your place. You realize again that it’s not about your money. Your work. Your make up, or your style of clothing. You remember that it’s about the magic. The power of nature. Earth. Water. Sun. Sun is rising. Sun is going down. For a moment, think about what this earth has given to you. This is the beauty of life. The beauty of this moment. The beauty of you.

omehow, I’m feeling very connected with my inner self and cosmos the last two days. I’m wondering if it might be still related to the enormous full moon on Friday 🌕. Or maybe it’s because I’m reflecting much more how easy and simple life can be. Maybe it’s because I’m feeling more and more complete and fully recovered of doubts, troubles and thoughtfulness. I love to recognize your different mindset and deeper consciousness about life it’s self. You are great as you are. You are wonderful. 🪐

Do you know this feeling when everything stops for a while? When every breath let you feel accomplished and fully in peace with your soul? 🌅

Eine Revolution muss stattfinden, und sie beginnt in jedem und jeder von uns. Wenn wir die Art und Weise ändern, wie wir die Welt sehen, wenn wir erkennen, dass wir und die Erde eins sind, und wenn wir mit Achtsamkeit zu leben beginnen, wird unser eigenes Leiden allmählich weniger werden. Fühlen wir uns nicht mehr von unserem eigenen Leiden überwältigt, werden wir über das nötige Mitgefühl und das Verständnis verfügen, um die Erde mit Liebe und Respekt zu behandeln. Wenn wir das Gleichgewicht in uns selbst wiederherstellen, beginnen wir mit der Arbeit, das Gleichgewicht auf der Erde wiederherstellen. Es gibt keinen Unterschied zwischen der Sorge um den Planeten un der Sorge um uns selbst und uner eigenes Wohlergehen. Es gibt keinen Unterschied zwischen der Heilung des Planeten und der Heilung unserer selbst. Wirkliche Veränderung wird nurdann geschehen, wenn wir uns in unseren Planeten verlieben. Nur Liebe kann uns zeigen, wie wir in Harmonie mit der Natur und miteinander leben und uns vor den verheerenden Auswirkungen retten können. Wenn wir die Talente der Erde erkennen, fühlen wir uns mit ihr verbunden, und Liebe wird in unserem Herzen geboren. Wir wollen verbunden sein. Das ist der Sinn der Liebe: eins zu sein. Wenn man jemanden liebt, , möchte man für diese Person sorgen. Wenn wir auf diese Weise lieben, ist das eine gegenseitige Liebe. Wir werden alles zum Wohle der Erde tun, und wir können darauf vertrauen, dass sie ihrerseits alles für unser Wohlergehen tun wird.


Life always changes it’s ways. Plans you made will die somehow. Never stick to believes and thoughts you think they have to be right. Reschedule your life, take your own way and all opportunities you get 🚸. Everything changes always.

In unserem Alltag vergessen wir oft, dass Geist und Körper miteinander verbunden sind. Unser Körper ist hier, doch unser Geist ganz woanders. Wir verlieren uns leicht in unserer Arbeit, unseren Plänen, unseren Ängsten, unseren Träumen. Wir leben mehr und mehr in unserem Geist und entfremden uns immer weiter von der natürlichen Welt. Wenn wir es schaffen zu uns zurück zu kehren, in den Moment, bringen wir Körper und Geist wieder zusammen und erkennen die Wunder um uns herum. In diesem Moment, in diesem gegenwärtigen Augenblick. ☀️

In unserer Gesellschaft leiden unzählige Menschen unter Einsamkeit. Wir versuchen, unsere Gefühle der Leere zu vertuschen, indem wir Dinge konsumieren oder indem wir ständig mit anderen in Verbindung sein wollen. Die Technologie liefert uns dafür viele Hilfsmittel, und doch fühlen wir uns weiterhin einsam. Vielleicht verbringen wir den ganzen Tag damit, Verbindungen herzustellen - wir checken viele Male unsere E-Mails, verschicken Texte, posten Texte, sehen uns Videos an -, ohne dass dies das Gefühl der Einsamkeit verringern würde. Wir alle suchen festen Boden unter den Füßen, unser wahres Zuhause, einen Ort, an dem wir uns sicher, behaglich, erfüllt und nicht mehr einsam fühlen. Aber wo ist unser Zuhause? Der Buddha sagt, dass die Heimat in uns selbst ist, dass es in uns eine friedliche Insel gibt, zu der wir mit achtsamem Atem oder achtsamem Gehen zurückkehren können. Stell' dir eine wunderschöne Insel vor, mit Bäumen, klaren Wasserläufen, Vögeln, Sonnenschein und frischer Luft. Ein Atemzug, ein Schritt ist alles, was wir brauchen um uns im Hier und Jetzt zu Hause und wohl zu fühlen. Wenn wir auf diese Weise zu uns selbst zurückkehren und Zuflucht auf unserer inneren Insel suchen, werden wir zu einem Zuhause für uns selbst und gleichzeitig zu einem Zufluchtsort für andere:
- Thi Nhat Hanh

The Yoga life. Almost a year ago, the yoga journey run over me. With the first lockdown, also my regular yoga practice started. Not really knowing what was going to happen, or what I can achieve. Back then, I actually didn't know that I'm going to start a teacher training and that I'm sitting in front of (online) people to "Ommm..." and "breath" them through my own yoga classes. I wasn't even sure if I really understood the deeper meaning of yoga besides the static Asana practice. Yoga helps to build harmony between your body and mind, and it is taking you on a journey to a stronger, calmer, healthier, and happier you. You can’t do yoga. It is your natural state. And this is exactly what I discovered over the last year. Experiencing and observing the deeper self. The unknown. I'm still a starter though. And I believe this journey will never end. It is so amazing to see what you can achieve once you open up for the new. Never stop dreaming. Never stop hoping and never stop starting. This is life. This is you. 🤲

"Let it go. Free your mind, live your life, feed your soul.
Give your time, see your fam, keep 'em close.
'Cause you never know when it could all be gone.
Just let it go, let it go, let it go. "
- Erick the Architect 
The first photo is not me today. Me today was melancholic. Thoughtful. Full of skeptic and uncertainties. I slept pretty bad the last nights and had to deal with some negative feelings. Full of worries, captured in thoughts. So today I did something different for myself. For my metime. I decided to stay apart from Social Media and Online contacts as much as possible. I took of my apple watch. I canceled all my to-do's and decided to just do things I feel like I really wanna do. 
I didn't do my Yoga Sadhana. I didn't do my meditation. I didn't do proper cooking. I went to bed again after waking up. I cleaned my balcony out of old rests of the winter to get it finally ready for spring. (for my cleaning karma of course 😬). I went out to get a thai massage, which was truly what I needed. I biked 45k not knowing where to go. I went for pizza 🍕and the first beer after 3 months . 
I love my life and everyone who is part of it.


Denn ich lebe weder in der Vergangenheit, noch in der Zukunft. Ich habe nur die Gegenwart, und nur diese interessiert mich. Wenn du immer in der Gegenwart leben kannst, dann bist du ein glücklicher Mensch. Dann wirst du bemerken, dass die Welt lebt, dass der Himmel voller Sterne ist und dass die Krieger kämpfen, weil dies Teil des Menschen ist. Dann wird das Leben zu einem großen Schauspiel, zu einem Fest, denn es ist immer und aussschließlich der Moment, den wir gerade erleben. 
- der Alchemist

We tend to live for tomorrow. We think if we could just get to a certain point, have just one thing, or be with one person, then we can be happy and start living life fully. And doing so, life passes us by. Now, this can be a very obvious thing, but other times not so much. It is more an image that exists in our mind. It is part of our inner dialog or monologue. Most of us have an idea in our mind of a point where we think we will be happy. Sometimes it is very strong, and other times it is a lot more settled. But having our mind in a future place, and having our experience of now compared to a hypothetical experience of then - we are not really living in the moment at all. We are living in a strange place between now and this future moment. And a moment that hasn't existed yet. Thinking we could just get to that moment and everything will be great and happy. So we are living in this idea, in a story. But the moment we step out of that story and thinking the moment, we let go of that, instead, we actually get to experience the richness and beauty of this moment right now. 
- Headspace Meditation

Mein Mantra to slow down: Aham Brahmasmi: (Sanskrit: अहं ब्रह्मास्मि aham brahmāsmi) "Ich bin Brahman". Eines der Mahavakyas (Affirmationen aus dem Vedanta) aus den Upanishaden. Aham heißt "ich bin". Brahman ist dieses Brahman. Asmi heißt dieses. Aham Brahmasmi – ich bin dieses Brahman. Aham Brahmasmi drückt die Einheit aus der individuellen Seele mit der kosmischen Seele. Du bist nicht beschränkt auf den physischen Körper, du bist so viel mehr. Du kannst so viel. Das was du denkst, das siehst du, Das was du denkst, leitet deine Gefühle, deinen Geist, deine Seele. Trau' dich. Wag dich und beschränke dich nicht.


Selbst wenn es nur der Wunsch ist zu reisen ... die Weltenseele wird von dem Glück der Mensch gespeist. Oder vom Unglück, von Neid und Eifersucht. Unsere einzige Verpflichtung besteht darin, den persönlichen Lebensplan zu erfüllen. Alles ist ein Ganzes. Und wenn du etwas ganz fest willst, dann wird das gesamte Universum dazu beitragen, dass du es auch erreichst. - der Alchimist


Sometimes we want to escape from the world and to find a way to unplug. But in truth, we need to find a way to reconnect, a movement towards the world and to plug back in. Somehow our mind is plugged in all the time without a need to unplug. But sometimes we need to disconnect from the world in some way. Or maybe it is the other way around. Normally, in everyday life, we are actually not plugged into the present moment. We are disconnected most of the time. Our body is in one place and our mind is elsewhere. So it leads to the sense of either not belonging or kind of feeling overwhelming in some way. So when it gets interesting is, when we pause ... when we step out of that ... when we plug back into the present moment. And out of nowhere, there is this sense of belonging, of recharging. There is space to reconnect with the world around us. It sounds so paradoxical because we are stepping away to reconnect again. But often, that's exactly what's necessary.🪐

Als wir uns fanden, waren wir blind. Wir verletzen uns. Der Treibsand unserer Missverständnisse zog uns voneinander weg. Doch eine geheime Kraft, nennen wir sie Liebe, verführte uns, immer wieder aufeinander zuzugehen. Wir fürchteten uns, aber wir blieben im Feuer der Nähe stehen. Wir berührten einander. Das Dunkle kam ins Licht. Das Licht hab dich dem dunklen hin. Das Hässliche offenbarte seine eigene zarte, leise Schönheit. Alte Wunden brachen auf und heulten. Das Tier tobte sich aus und kam zur Ruhe. Das Göttliche küsste sich in uns wach. Und all dem fand der Mensch seinen Frieden. Wir erinnerten uns. Der Geist wurde still. Wie erhoben unseren Blick und erkannten uns. In allem mit Liebe.
- Veit Lindau 


Somtimes it seems like things are not moving, like you are stuck or even going backwards. Hear me, everything is flowing, everything is moving forward always. Everything is just the way it is supposed to be. Trust a little. Everything you have lived has led up to this moment and it all makes perfect sense. At some point you will see ... Let it feel good. Let your chest feel a little lighter, your face a little warmer and the corner of your mouth lift just a little into the slightest softest knowing smile.


Sometimes it seems like things are not moving like you are stuck or even going backward. Hear me, everything is flowing, everything is moving forward always. Everything is just the way it is supposed to be. Trust a little. Everything you have lived has led up to this moment and it all makes perfect sense. At some point you will see ... Let it feel good. Let your chest feel a little lighter, your face a little warmer and the corner of your mouth lift just a little into the slightest softest knowing smile 🌊.

 This is your reminder that time is limited. Many times we only focus on the things in life which block us from focusing on the good things life is presenting us. We worry about deadlines, workouts, fashion, or over-material objects. But we forget about the important things in life. Your partner, your family, your health, and the special moments every day. Take a moment to step back. Be thankful for your happy self, for your better half, your ability to be conscious and to see the world's beauty day by day. 🌞 Which is the person, or moment, or pet, you are thankful for today? 


I think if I could get you to do one thing.
I would say that when you get to the point that you...
Really feel, highly motivated, too, just, towards keeping your virtue...
Then you'll discover quite quickly how extraordinary life was meant to be, could be.
And it's just we get so messy, it's not that we are doing lots of wrong things, our mind is so messy.
We don't keep it simple.
And we end up making the life that we are living, so in-ordinarily complicated.
Completely unnecessarily, and it's such a shame to end up feeling, in a real muddle, while actually, you ought to be having the time of your lives.
It doesn't actually take very much to make the deepest part of us incredibly happy.
Do you know?
Just to be here, just to appreciate.
Appreciate being here.
To feel that you're alive.
To be in touch with your heart.
That's it.
It takes mindfulness to come to human life.
And then above that, it takes mindfulness and virtue, to come to a fortunate human life.
The chance to be part of this happens briefly.
The invitation is not to show how inventive and imaginative you are.
But how much you can notice what you're already part of.
And appreciate it and share it, and care about those that are around who count for their welfare while you are looking out for your own, that's it.
And then you'll get to the end of it, having had an awesome time.
Knowing, that that is something you'd recommend to others.
Ah.
You all know.
You already know this place inside, where it's alright.
You all know that when you let the ego go, it's not this black hole that you jump into
You all know it.
Why can't we do it?
And yet the world is creaking under the strain of this in-ordinarily complicated mass of humanity and actually you know, it's really simple
When you came here.
You came here with a sense of awe and wonder, dying to just see what it's about.
You know, it's like, what would it be like?
To be down there?
To be part of it?
And you came here with a sense of wonder, and somehow the wonder of it wasn't enough and we stopped wondering and started to wonder about ourselves.
And in your wondering about yourself, you forgot what you came here for.
- Mt. Wolf

Do you want to know what enlightenment is?
It's with you every moment.
It's back and forth.
Letting go of your attachments- to yourself and to outcomes.
Letting go of the way things are.
If I could let go of everything,
Or if I could let go of right or wrong,
It would get deeper and deeper.
And it was amazing.
I could sense the life of judgments against myself.
And then I let go.
With thoughtless breath, instant bliss returns.
Instant infinity.
I didn’t transcend my ego, we became partners.
We became teammates.

 How we react to negative emotions is just as important as the emotions themselves. Those who constantly condemn themselves for being sad or angry add to the negative emotion. This not only makes you sad or angry but also stressed out the additional rejection. Listen to yourself and let go. 

Die Macht des Jetzt. Wir leben im Jetzt, nicht in der Vergangenheit oder der Zukunft. Doch jeder Moment ist vergänglich. Im Jetzt zu leben bedeutet also, diesen Fluss der Zeit zu aktzeptieren. Zu aktzeptieren, dass die Vergangenheit vergangen ist und die Zukunft hypothetisch. Im Jetzt sind wir verankert. Wir können nicht wissen, ob es wirklich ein Morgen geben wird. Heute, dieser Moment, ist alles, worauf wir bauen können. Durch das Leben im Moment können wir Glück erlangen, dieses darf allerdings nicht mit Hedonismus verwechselt werden. Moralische Verantwortung basiert gänzlich auf dem Nachdenken über die Zukunft - über zukünftige Konsequenzen. Die Vergangenheit dürfen wir ebenso wenig vernachlässigen, ist sie doch der Nährboden für unsere wertvollen Erinnerungen. Achtsam ist derjenige, der jedem Ereignis, jeder Handlung, jedem Wort seine ganze Aufmerksamkeit schenk. Durch Achtsamkeit wird dir nichts dieser Dinge entgehen. - Barbara Ann Kipfer

 Golden hour. Golden moments. Innehalten. Genießen. Momente erkennen und erleben. Wir tun so viel für unsere äußere Hülle, aber wer räumt von innen auf. Sport. Arbeit. Beauty. Instagram. Vieles passiert nur für unseren äußeren Schein und Verlangen. Neue Klamotten. Neue Smartwatch. Nicht alles was glänzt ist gold. Und nicht alles was gold ist glänzt von innen. Ist es nicht unser Inneres, was uns stärkt und lange glänzen lässt? Sollten wir nicht unseren Fokus auf unser innerliches Gold legen? Wege und Verhalten finden, was uns vor allem mit uns selbst strahlen lässt. Denn am Ende zählt, wie wir unsere Ordnung beibehalten und unser Licht von innen lange nach außen strahlt. 💫✨🌟 

Emotionen. Gefühle. Ich bin nach wie vor neu in richtigen Beziehungsgedanken und Diskussionen. Liebe ist großartig und eine Bereicherung, aber auch ein Kompromiss vieler Dinge und ein laufendes Projekt. Harte Egos können viele verschiedene Meinungen und Standpunkte einbringen, die es schwierig machen können, einen ausgeglichenen Rhythmus zu finden. Besonders kombiniert mit Gefühlen. Ich denke zu viel. Zu viel verlangen. Zu langsames Wachsen. Wann aufhören? Mir ist klar, dass ein starker innerer Teil meines dunkelsten Selbst von Selbstkritik zu Beziehungsbeschwerden übergegangen ist. Immer nach etwas Besserem verlangen. Nie genug. Es ist nicht nur mein Gehirn, das die Dinge umdreht, sondern auch meine Emotionen. Süchtig nach Liebe, Zärtlichkeit und Nähe. Nie genug. Ein Glaubenssatz, der mir bereits viele Jahre lang für viele Lebensteile im Kopf bleibt. Wie gehe ich mit meinen Emotionen um? Wie kann ich zu meinem Ort der Selbstliebe zurückkehren? Vielleicht muss ich von Zeit zu Zeit akzeptieren, dass ich aufhöre zu überdenken und festzuhalten. Dinge laufen lassen und mir erlauben, emotional frei zu sein.

 Energie. Mehr fühlen als ist. Mehr zulassen als vertraut. Ungewohntes. Starkes. Unbekanntes. Oft kann einen eine gewisse Ungewissheit zu neuen Taten ermutigen und neue Energie fließen lassen. Aber gestern hat mich eine andere Energie durchströmt. Das mich meine tägliche Yogapraxis in eine neue und andere energetische Verfassung bringen kann, ist mir mittlerweile bewusst. Körper und Geist finden in eine gewisse Balance und Gleichgewicht, sodass eine neue Energie fließen kann. Aber so wie gestern war es noch nie. Energiestrudel. Sprudel aus dem innersten meines Körpers. Oder Geistes.Oder stärkeren Kraft. Ich wollte weinen. Ich wollte lachen. Ich wollte schweigen. Liegen. Sein. Voller Energie. Voller Gefühl. Mein Atem ist ganz still. Doch mein Körper rast vor Energie. Manch einer redet von der Erweckung von Kundalini 🐍. Ob man es glauben will, oder nicht. Noch die Nacht über lege und drehe ich mich von diesem intensiven Erlebnis. Energie in Körper und Geist. Was eine Erfahrung. Was eine Reise. Und es geht nicht mehr zurück. Mir wird bewusst. Da ist wesentlich mehr, als mir bewusst ist. 

 Control. We tend to control many things in life. Especially ourselves. Control about behaviors. Control about what we have to think. About food. About friends. Our job and daily tasks. Once we fall out of this control and follow our habits and routines anymore, we feel anxious and useless. Controlling things and how we relate to others and ourselves. can let us feel strong and self-conscious. But does controlling life really allow us to let flow with what is happening? Can we accept the universe and what is happening around and with us if we lose control? Last weeks, I felt exactly like this. Out of control. After a bicycle fall on the street, I had many problems with a concussion and my very swollen those foot. It wasn’t a really strong fall or accident but it completely destroyed my known conciseness and the way I used to think and behave to ours. I have to admit that I also didn’t want to accept the reality that my head has to rest strongly to recover in a good way. I didn’t want to lose the normal control of my body, of my mind. Tried to continue my yoga and gym sessions, my social life, and all over obligations. My brain and emotions were a mess but I didn’t mean to stop. 3 weeks later I found myself in hospital on a Sunday and I started to realize that this is a strong warning of my body. A huge alarm to finally listen to me and accept the current situation and let it flow. And this can be hard sometimes. Taking a step back, letting things and deep believings go. Still, I’m more in the learning face of this 😀 we can’t just push and push and push forward. Life will show you that you are not the controller, it controls you. 

 
Acceptance. Sometimes I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know what I think. I don’t know what to follow. Don’t know what I actually wanna do with my life. Am I good enough? Can I reach my goals? And what exactly does goal mean to me? What matters? Opinions? Knowledge? Practise? Sometimes you do things just because you feel forced to. Just because you should do so. Don’t be non-social during summer nights. Don’t spend too much time alone at home. Why didn’t you go out? Why didn’t you join our group? Questions. Criticism. Negative feelings. Negative thoughts. Do I have to behave how people expect or should I have to react to how I feel?
It’s 8 PM, Saturday night, 30 degrees and I'm sitting alone at home. I left a birthday sit-in because I felt an inner disconnection. A part that let me feel non-social. Which on the one hand told me, I have to be part of community happenings and on the other hand just wanted to escape from people's conversations. Questions. Is this thinking still okay? And who actually decides what we define for being “okay”? Can we accept our inner voice? Can we accept our thoughts? And the main question, can we behave in a way so we feel satisfied with our acceptance? Sometimes, it is exactly this, accepting ourselves, that will push us to new ways, new feelings, new goals, and new perspectives ☀️. 

Dankbarkeit 👐. Sich Dingen bewusst sein, Innen und Außen. Visualisierungen. Visionen. Positiv und achtsam durchs Leben gehen. Irgendwie spielt alles aufeinander und miteinander ein. Wie beginnst du deinen Tag? Wofür bist du dankbar? Weißt du, wonach du strebst? Wo siehst du dich wann und wie? Um seine Positivität und Optimismus zu behalten, musst du dich auch auf Positivites fokussieren. Frage dich tagtäglich, worüber bin ich heute dankbar. Schreib es auf. Stell es dir genauestens vor. Erstelle deine gewünsche Realität. Freue dich. Zeige deine Begeisterung. Jeden Tag. Was ist dein Happy Moment am heutigen Tag? Wer oder was lässt dich strahlen. Nimm' es an. Dinge werden sich verändern. Äußerlich. Innerlich. Nimm' dir Zeit und genieße den Prozess der Veränderung. Let it grow.🐯

 Wie bleibe ich im Alltag positiv und motiviert? Optimismus ist eine Entscheidung. Du entscheidest, ob das Negative deine Gedanken beeinflusst. Jeder kann das Positive in sich durch neue Routinen und Gewohnheiten finden. Das Gute ist immer bei uns, wir müssen uns nur immer wieder daran erinnern. Optimismus kann neu gelernt werden. Klare Ziele. Affirmationen. Dankbarkeit. Finde deinen neuen Weg mit mehr Aufmerksamkeit und Achtsamkeit. Und verfolge deine Vision. So natürlich wie möglich. Der größter Erfolg besteht darin, so zu sein, wie du wirklich sind. 🌻🌻🌻Habe grundlegendes Vertrauen in dich selbst und dass das Leben von Grund auf wohlwollend ist. 

Gedanken sind immer da. Wir stellen uns den ganzen Tag Fragen in unserem Kopf. Oft geht uns dabei das intuitive Gespür verloren. Was bleibt: "Dühlen" und "Fenken". Ein großes Chaos im Kopf und Körper vermischt mit limitierten Gedankengängen, die in einem Karousel immer wieder kehren. Gefangen in Sorgen aus der Vergangenheit, oder Zukunft. Und genau so wirkt sich auch unser Verhalten darauf aus, Fühlen ist die Sprache des Körpers. Denken ist die Gehirnsprache. Wiie finden wir wieder mehr ins Hier und Jetzt? Wie lassen sich Gedanken umändern zu neuer mentaler Stärke? Affirmationen. Visualisierungen. Beobachten. Wahrnehmen. Unsere Gedanken entscheiden über unsere Lebensqualität und nicht unsere Umstände. Wir selbst entscheiden, wie intenstiv wir unseren gedanklichen Impulsen nachgeben und wie wir darauf reagieren. Aus Bekanntem wird nichts Neues folgen. Das Gehirn bleibt in den gleichen routinierten Reaktionen und Emotionen aktiv. Gleiche Übertragungen. Gleiche neutronale Schaltmuster. Was wir brauchen sind neue Entscheidungen. Traue dich in das Unbekannte. Lass los von alten Einstellungen und Überzeugungen aus der Vergangenheit. Finde Raum aktzeptiere das Jetzt und verändere deine Energie. 

Erschaffe Raum. Finde Klarheit. Wo stehst du gerade und wo willst du hin? Um Struktur für und mit dir selbst zu erhalten, ist es erst einmal wichtig, seinen Gedanken Raum zu lassen und zu schauen, wo man gerade steht. Wir können anfangen zu beobachten, zu bemerken und fragen, was überhaupt da ist, Aber wie fange ich an? Wie finde ich mein "Warum"? Finde deine Motivation. Finde die Bereiche, die dir wichtig sind und Motivation geben. Finde dein Selbstvertrauen. Und fang an in dich zu vertrauen. So, wie du wirklich bist. Keine Limitierungen oder Blockaden mehr, denn dass äußere Leben ist ein Spiegel von deinem Inneren. Meine eigene Mitte habe ich vor einiger Zeit versucht mit dem Ikigai Model (Love, World, Talent, Money) heraus zu kristallisieren. Aber auch das fokussieren auf verschiedene Lebensbereiche, wie soziales Umfeld, Geist, Körper und Beruf, machen dir Dinge bewusst, die du vielleicht im Alltags- und Gedankenchaos lange übersehen, oder verloren hast. Was sind deine Werte? Deine Stärken, deine Schwächen. Frage dich täglich, wie du heute sein willst. Welche Gedanken und Einstellungen möchtest du haben und wie möchtest du denken. Schreib es auf. Erst wenn es dir richtig klar ist, du Raum findest, Dinge zu benennen und zu sehen, wirst du anfangen eine andere Perspektive wahrzunehmen.

Do things differently. Go outside when it’s raining. Call someone when you feel like you would like someone to call you. Jump. Go backward. Talk to someone you actually felt you don’t like. Smile. Take an ice cream flavor you would never choose. You decide who you are. Give someone a hug. Love. Let it be in any direction. Stay curious. Laugh. Cry. Accept over opinions. Over attitudes. You need time to take care of yourself. And no matter what, be natural. Be brave.


Confusion. What does being confused actually mean? Chaos. Mixed feelings. Unknown emotions. Different thoughts. Positive. Negative. Today I’m feeling confused. Not every day is full of motivation, focus, and energy. Finding myself in old thoughts of loneliness and isolation. I’m used to stay alone quite much and I know, I’m mostly quite good with that. I need lots of time for all my mindfulness. But some days it doesn’t feel good. This is nothing new to me. What I recently found out about myself and how I handle these situations of losing my inner optimism is that I directly start to search for other people in my mind to ever make them responsible for my confusion or to try to find anyone to get distracted of my mood. It shouldn’t mean, being social and being around is something we should avoid, everyone needs social relationships to stay alive. But doesn't it mean we kind of cheat on ourselves to not accept our dark side? How should we understand ourselves deeply if we don’t find space to accept all feelings in how they show up? So try to let go of distractions sometimes. Try to not look to the outside and accept the inside. I still believe that it is on us and our choice how we relate to our thoughts and feelings. But knowing and acting might be difficult and confusing. So don’t feel bad about being vulnerable, start accepting your confusion.

Change. In being mindful of our choices, we create the opportunity for change. But changes can be confusing sometimes. The unknown. The way to new feelings, new thoughts, and new habits. How do I know if it might be worth it? Why shall I start changing things if I don’t know the outcome? Well. Here it comes. Do you suffer in any kind of part of your life? Do you crave for more? Higher feelings? In your body? It’s time to stop complaining. Change. Try to create an environment that helps to support the change that you seek. Ask yourself, where do you wanna go. Where do you wanna be? Start making self goals. Daily. Weekly. You are the only one who can change your inner self. Once you start that, your outside will follow. There is nothing to worry about. The biggest thing that could happen is that you are going to live what you would like to do. Btw, going swimming in April could be a new change as well.

Emotions. Life is a lot about our thoughts, feeling, and emotions. The weird part starts when we think about what we should feel and we don’t really start feeling deep into ourselves. Emotions take over which we can’t really control and we react overwhelmed, confused, and not understandable. Don’t take this victim roll anymore. You decide how much power an emotion has and how much it controls you. You decide your reaction. You are stronger than think right now.



Expectations. Do we have the rights to set expectations for other people around us? And how do we actually restrict ourselves not to do so? Many times, I’m finding myself expecting things and behaviors in a certain way because of the cravings of my souls and inner needs that I would like to full fill. What does this mean? Somehow, we are triggered to look first to the outside and people around us before we start searching and healing the inside of us. You start putting pressure and expectations on others because you think they might help you to feel your inner love. You start believing certain things, or people are needed in your life. Followed, these expectations fail. You are disappointed. Disappointed of a reality that actually just existed in your mind and cravings.
Today a friend told me about the Self-Fulfilling Prophecy. This would be actually the official definition. The process by which a person’s expectations about someone can lead to someone behaving in ways that confirm the expectations. “The beginning, a false definition of the situation evoking a new behavior which makes the original false conception come true. This specious validity of the self-fulfilling prophecy perpetuates a reign of terror. For the prophet will cite the actual course of events as proof that he was right from the very beginning.” (Merton). How do we jump out of these beliefs? How do we observe ourselves so much to take a step back to our inner face to feel that strong and grounded without setting any expectations? Try to create some mental space. Try to accept your emotions and needs. And remember that only you have the power to change your behavior.

Balance. Losing balance feels hard in life. It might be, in fact, the floor or street you fall on. Or things fall apart. You are out of control. How to find balance in these times full of lost habits and routines? ”Social Distracting” is a trend to follow now. And yes, indeed, everyone should and has to follow that. No hangouts with friends anymore. No drinks and outside activities. No sports. No gym. Knowing, these are still very luxury concerns. There is much more to worry about and to focus on.
We are falling out of our daily controls. Plans and schedules are gone. Appointments disappear and from one day to another the world, as we know it, is frozen. Normality is gone. How to behave? What to believe? Full of thoughts. Full of fear. Where to go? And who to ask for? My mood is switch between economical-drama and meditational-patience. Mindful. Chaos. Lonely. We don’t know where Corona will bring us. But we do know, normal life won’t be as normal as known before. On the other hand, people can find closer together. Even though it is not physically close yet. Lifetime donations, support groups, and initiatives spreading around in hours for those who need it the most. Probably, our way of how to connect and work with the digitalism flow grew 10 times faster than normal. Also, you personally see, who is really there for you. Who is willing to catch up with you virtually and even better, who is going to call you on your phone. The power of good old phone calls. And these are the things, the people, we can count on. The valuable ones. So take a step back. See who is there. What is there for you? And you will find your new balance. Your new habits. Perhaps unknown. Perhaps in an uncertain way. Maybe we all need this time to rethink ourselves. To set us up in a new way. With a new focus. A new vision. With more power and more humanity. 🦩🦩🦩

Appreciation. Gratitude. Kindness. Be aware of how appreciation can allow us to be more present in the world. The more you familiarize the mind and body with kindness and gratitude, the more naturally it arises in your life. Take a moment every day and ask yourself, who or what do I appreciate the most today. 


You. This is about you. I haven’t met you in life yet. But I know I will. You will be the one to show me, true love. You will be the one my soul is craving for so long. You will show me why all these dating stories never worked out for me. Why no one could stand my need, my hunger of closeness and passion. When I meet you, I will understand why people disappear and “ghost” me after emotional sharings. You will be there. You will bring me flowers. You will tell me that you want to see me. That you want to spend nights with me. That you want to talk days and nights. Full of laughing. Full of kisses. Full of passion. You will take my hand. You will keep me close because you know I need all this. You will understand me when I feel like shit again because I overate myself and can't control my confusion and inner struggles. You will know me better than my outside look of self-confidence. You will see the little shy girl I used to be. I will know that you won’t push me away. I will come over in the night to surprise you. I will leave you random sweet notes of love. I will make lots of photos. Just because I will love telling you and everyone else how great you are. I will bake a cake for you. And, of course, I will make you laugh every day. We will do stupid things. Crazy things. Random things. Full of food stories. Shared Pizza. Shared waffles. Shared heart stories. We will fight and argue after a time and I will cry a lot. You will know this. And you will tell me not to be so emotional and sensitive. But you will also know that this is a part of me. The part who is afraid of losing you. The part which always was left alone after trying to hold on to previous stories which were never meant to work out on a relationship level. You will show me love and what it means to have someone at your side day by day. You will be my partner, even though crazy people in Berlin are normally not made for this. I will meet you. And I will know when it's you. Well. I think this is the most personal text I shared so far. But maybe in these days at home, when the distraction of your inner self is harder than in general, people start caring more heartful. Regardful. And with more love.



Optimism. How can we stay optimistic in this world full of craziness and messed up people? Daily worries. No time. No money. No sleep. No routines. No energy. To lose yourself in the chaos of life is easy. You feel powerless and frustrated with actions and situations you can’t influence and change. Our experiences form us into what we are. Everyone has his/her inner wounds and wholes. So how can we get up every day and feel the energy of an optimistic life? It’s the inner side. Start observing yourself. Start reflecting on your inner feelings. You will find out so much more to feel and think of. You will see that you can shift your own emotions and feelings into positive ones. You have the control. If you give the best, you get the best. Day by day you will internalize the goodwill of your mind. You will let go of things in the outside world because they don’t matter anymore. And day by day … the inner optimism of your mind will begin to grow.


Awareness. Paying attention to a certain way of consciousness without judging. What does this mean? First, you have to practice how to recognize your awareness and how to let it flow openly and without making a judgment. Once you start practicing this, it will fit into your mind as open space. You will make more acknowledged decisions in life which will be followed by different reactions. You are going to break through your stuck behavior. New ways with new emotional results will follow. You will grow your mind and you will stop reacting in your old emotional circle. Known anger, frustration, or disappointment won’t affect your situation with judgment anymore. With an open awareness, we will see happenings more clearly and without illusions. We will observe our thoughts and emotions from the outside. You have the power of how much a situation will influence you. So how to actually see and feel more awareness in life? You can start every day. Create a deep moment. Listen. Observe. Feel. How do you make your coffee? How do you brush your teeth? How does it feel? How does it sound? Mainly, we lose ourselves struggling about what happened in the past and what could happen in the future. But if we start staying and feeling in the moment of awareness, we will get back to our balance and lose our worries. ⭐⭐⭐ Everyday practice will make an everyday change.



Rückschläge. Die letzten Wochen habe ich gemerkt, dass ich aus unwissenden Gründen immer wieder in alte konditionierte Verhaltensweisen zurück falle. Bei mir hat das dann immer ganz viel mit Essen zutun. Selbst wenn ich vom Kopf her das Gefühl habe, dass mein Bewusstsein gefestigt ist und ich durch neue Gedankenimpulse, Bewusstsein und Meditation Dinge nach und nach anders angehe, kommen doch wieder emotionale Aussetzer durch. Wie also sich selbst verbessern und zurück zur mentalen Balance finden, wenn man erst einmal gar nicht weiß, wo man mit Verbesserung anfangen soll? Natürlich sollte allgemein immer vieles weitaus Schöner sein im Leben. Über meinen Lieblings Coaching Podcast von @cursezeit hat sich dann eine ausgesprochene Frage und Aussage bei mir im Kopf manifestiert: “Wer bin ich, dass es mir nicht gut?” Ich habe alles, was ich dafür brauche, dass es mir gut geht. Wieso also auf die Sachen fokussieren, die uns nicht gut tun und nicht gut laufen? Wir machen uns selbst dafür fertig, dass es uns mal emotional schlecht geht und wir nicht 24/7 positiv denken. Hör auf. Was wir brauchen ist mehr Raum im Kopf. Denn dann fangen wir an mehr zu sehen. Zu fühlen. Zu entdecken. Dann ist mehr Bewusstsein da. Und wer auf Bewusstes achtet, dem wird mehr Gutes bewusst. Und das ist alles. Es geht ums erfahren. Schau nach innen. Fang bei dir selbst an. Lass Dinge geschehen. Und erlebe. 🦙

Don’t be afraid. Believe in yourself and what you want. Point out how you feel and what you want. Show your feelings. Show your emotions. I used to care too much about possible feelings and thoughts from the outside world around me. I was afraid of losing people and emotional changes and never wanted to actually stay for what my heart and soul is craving. I still find myself struggling with these old conditioned beliefs and thoughts. Don’t try to take a position that you don’t feel comfortable with. Communicate. Talk. There is nothing better than true honesty and freedom. And you can be sure, there will be moments full of passion. Full of love. Long nights. Bright lights and deep talks. 



Emotions. The mind can be a weird place. Especially, when it comes to feelings. My life used to be a circus. I used to be a fun performer,. I loved the life of party and still do. I love being wild and making people laugh. It fills my soul somehow to be motivated. For me, it feels good to show good feelings to others and kind of affect them with openness. But on the other hand, I used to let everyone in my life with an understanding that people are willing to show themselves with a deeper openness. For me, it felt right that others also wanna share their inner feelings with me. Well. This is not often the case. As long as it comes to positive stories most people are fine with this. But once you start sharing your negative concerns, your darker side, I noticed, that certain people were only there for the entertaining show. Once the lights switch off, they disappear. And every time I thought, I did something wrong. I perhaps shared too much of my inner life. Again. No. If you don’t accept me as I am, both in my color and in my darkness, then leave me be. I’m so happy about all the who stay by me, laugh with me, cry with me, and dance with me even though I know that I can be overreacting and deep emotions can fall over me from nowhere. Pause for a moment to notice how you feel right now. Let it be, whatever it is. Every emotion is a part of yourself. 🐌

Golden hour. Golden moments. Pause. Enjoy. Recognize and experience moments. We do so much for our outer shell, but who cleans up from the inside. Sports. Job. Beauty. Instagram. Much happens only for our appearances and desires. New clothes. New smartwatch. Not everything that glitters is gold. And not everything that is gold shines from within. Isn't it the inner being that strengthens us and makes us shine for a long time? Shouldn't we put our focus on our inner gold? Find ways and behavior that let us shine with ourselves above all. Because in the end what counts is how we maintain our order and how our light shines from the inside out for a long time.

Thoughts. We think thoughts are confusing. But what is important is how we relate to our thoughts and how we acknowledge becoming distracted by them. Try not to overthink the process too much. Instead, enjoy the feeling of pausing to balance. Don’t worry if there are lots of thoughts running around in your mind. See the thought. If it is helpful, engage it, if it isn’t, let it go. In this way we have choice.

Reflection. The power of self-reflection makes it possible for everyone to rethink themselves and question their own behavior. Yourself is the most powerful habit which you can lose. Too many thoughts of ourselves are blocked in chains and stocked in our heads so we don’t even realize how they affect our daily behavior and emotions. Lot’s of potential and talent is blocked and not able to come free. The hardest thing is, we normally know what we crave for but we don’t know why we can’t take actions to just go for it in life. Everything is a mirror of our own beliefs. Every thought, word, action is an affirmation of believes we created deeply in ourselves. You have the choice to go for what you wanna go to. 🐯

Recently, I felt more connected to the sound of music, I felt like listening more clearly. Like it infects me more deeply and changed my mood and mind drastically. 🧸 Since I try to reflect even more on my inner self and try to hold my inner balance, I could realize an even more suggestible feeling and conciseness to outside happenings. I think it is a huge step in terms of changing and optimizing yourself, even though I could see how I feel overwhelmed with that inner mind sometimes.
Knowing that giving myself time and letting things happen is one of the hardest challenges for me. How do you feel about it? What is the thing which affects your inner feelings the most?

Clarity. Clarify yourself. 🌾 “Before we know what we do, we have to clarify what we think.” – Joseph Beuys.
Are you aware of yourself and who you are? Do you know how your weakness and strength affect your behavior? Focus on your good parts. You will feel more motivated and self-confident. Everything, that is behind us, or will be in the future, is nothing compared to the part, which you grow inside yourself. Take yourself out. An emotional miracle will happen. Your whole outside world is a mirror of your inside life. So, don’t limit yourself. Let it be. Leave your limited thoughts and believes behind you. Ask yourself every day, who do you want to be. How do you want to act? As we grow in our mind, our consciousness, there will be more compassion, more love, and barriers of yourself, between people, will begin to fall. “Tomorrow you are going to be the person, you thought of today.” - Buddha

Motivation. After rain comes the sun. Always. It’s a moody up and down from day to day to find your power and positivity. Today I’m found myself kind of in this situation. Actually, it was a great day. Morning meditation. Saw and talked to good people other the day. After work, I went energetic to the gym. Then it started. I found myself the second time waiting too long and struggling in full trains with too many things around. Sometimes it just happens in your mind and you don’t really understand your thoughts and follow feelings. Maybe you also don’t want to. You miss something. You care too much about others and outside happenings. Hoping for your attention. Waiting for your answers. Confused about unspoken words. You feel disconnected from yourself. What happens next? Normally, I’m quite good to suffer into my mindful negativity. You want to feel deeply that you don’t like how you feel right now. But today was different. Sweaty thoughtful me was almost going to shower and think about all tasks I still want to get done. And then … I was sitting in the kitchen and found myself telling me I shouldn’t care so much. Things will come. The right people will show up. There is no reason to stress yourself. I put some great music on. Loud. Post Malone. Better now. (Yes, this is great music 😉 ). And danced around. Singing out loud. Hello, world. You are here to pleasure me. Hello me. Thank you for making little things great again. You can find motivation every day.

Love. Self Love. 🦀 Accepting yourself fully and finding trust in yourself. You deserve to live a life full of love. The outside world is only showing how you feel and think with your inner soul. But how to find and build this strongness with yourself and your deepest mind? I used to struggle a lot with overthinking myself and everything that happened around me. Always thought I have to search for someone who takes my thoughts away and is going to take care of my mind, But how could someone else ever be in such a powerful position and being responsible for myself? The outside world won’t ever give you the love and satisfaction you are craving for.
Years and a year later, full of searching, failure, and lots of shitty dates later (oh yes so many dates) and mostly thought this has to be the one I can leave my inner chaos with.
I came to the point to work on my inner thoughts and how they flow. I found out, it is not about stopping them. It is about how we relate to our thinking and how we acknowledge becoming distracted by them. Once you get an understanding of that process, you find room in your mind and you start to rethink, you start to think differently. After changing your thoughts you make new decisions. And your decisions will infect your habits and behavior. You are going to make new experiences. And in the end, you will find new feelings and emotions you never felt before. It is about changing your relationships with your thoughts for loving yourself truly. Learn to love. You are light. Always.

Being alone. I used to feel lonely and isolated a lot in the last years. Which was actually never understandable for the outside world because I always tried to meet lots of people, created dinner and activity invites, and gathered unknown people together. Mostly tried to catch up and did what people liked to do. To reflect it from today’s point of view, I know, lots of it was more an escaping of not facing my lonely and lost self. I thought it must be the outside world which is not liking me. But in the end, I wasn't liking myself.
With a history of mindful struggles and eating disorders, I felt out of the world and couldn’t watch on my inner dark part. I just thought this was me and it would always feel wrong. Even though, I knew I have this optimistic face and hidden inner voice which pushes you at the end to keep ongoing. With an always reflected understanding of myself, I started to observe everything a bit deeper. Started to search for values and attitudes to better understand who exactly I might be and I might stand for in life. I started meditation. I started to practice more yoga. I started to be more thankful for everything. Still knowing, It is a long journey to take and a lifetime process with an open mind and open eye including dark and lonely moments.
Now, I started liking my loneliness. Sometimes I feel like, first I have to process and reflect it from the lonely side before doing something else and continue in life. Maybe it is just the way you grow. But it’s great.🌷